doesn't mean I'm not a lady.
I deserve better than the "fade away" and I deserve a date that's more than the drive-thru and reality TV in your dorm/apartment. And I sure as Hell deserve better than an invite to some party. C'mon guys, grow up. If you think you're "grown up" then you should check your date etiquette because making a reservation isn't enough. Find some talking points and be ready. I'm better than that and so is every other girl I know.
And I refuse to consider it a date if you do not say "date" and i mean SAY it because texting to ask me out is prohibited.
FYI
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Monday, May 28, 2012
sent and received something good
I will argue with all of you all day and night that I received the best package. I got mine from Claire and I felt like my best friend got me a gift! So please save your "I got the best package!" excitement for someone else (who didn't get the best package like I did).
So here it goes (no judging my dirty unmade bed or my lack of artistic genes):
first up, my beautiful I love Vancouver card along with a Dirty Dancing (!!!!!) cut out of THE SCENE, which I'm planning on framing so I don't bend it in any way. And an amazing book (Glaciers) I've already read twice because it's that good and heart wrenching and real.
Next I opened my beautiful card
and promptly put on my pin. I promise I styled it better when I did wear it but I had no one to take a picture!
and painted my nails :)
I also received a GORGEOUS scarf, but of course that picture will have to be added later since I can't seem to find it. I also ate all my strawberry preserves... sorry guys :)
So here it goes (no judging my dirty unmade bed or my lack of artistic genes):
first up, my beautiful I love Vancouver card along with a Dirty Dancing (!!!!!) cut out of THE SCENE, which I'm planning on framing so I don't bend it in any way. And an amazing book (Glaciers) I've already read twice because it's that good and heart wrenching and real.
Monday, May 21, 2012
MIA
sorry guys! i've been engrossed in my maymester! I LOVE IT
i'm taking Queer Theory which is so fascinating, and i'll tell you guys all about it once i'm done so i can accurately describe it. (it's one of those classes that blows my mind every day so that i know less than when i came in each day...in a good way!)
but this weekend i ran the diva half with my best friend Sarah.
here's some pictures to hold you all over:
excuse the shirtless me. it was so hot i ditched my shirt at mile 11.
ended around 78 degrees or so. HOT
i'm taking Queer Theory which is so fascinating, and i'll tell you guys all about it once i'm done so i can accurately describe it. (it's one of those classes that blows my mind every day so that i know less than when i came in each day...in a good way!)
but this weekend i ran the diva half with my best friend Sarah.
here's some pictures to hold you all over:
ended around 78 degrees or so. HOT
Monday, May 14, 2012
the beach
that's the place the other part of me lives.
the part of me that really feels beautiful at all times.
something about the salt caked in my hair and giving it killer body, running around half naked, or whole naked depending on the time :), being covered in sand and barefoot, showering outside or not at all, jumping waves, soaking up the rays as terrible as it may be.
my best memories have taken place at beaches.
i have really high hopes for this weekend, i've been having a rough time lately
the part of me that really feels beautiful at all times.
something about the salt caked in my hair and giving it killer body, running around half naked, or whole naked depending on the time :), being covered in sand and barefoot, showering outside or not at all, jumping waves, soaking up the rays as terrible as it may be.
my best memories have taken place at beaches.
i have really high hopes for this weekend, i've been having a rough time lately
looking like this, but brunet and not drinking coconut water, gag.
running
i dread running.
i love running while i'm running
i feel like throwing up when i finish.
oh joy :)
can't wait for this weekend.
i'm off to get supplies and go to my first day of may class!
i love running while i'm running
i feel like throwing up when i finish.
oh joy :)
can't wait for this weekend.
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Friday, May 11, 2012
oh friday
yesterday was my last day nannying.
last night i hung out with taylor (had a fabulous time as usual, thanks)
BUT THEN THIS MORNING HAPPENED.
i left my phone in her bed.
she left for NC and i'm without a phone until the 24th. i already tried to convince the school to break into her room (with the key of course), and they won't. typical.
so back to fb and middle school it is.
good luck knowing what i'm doing world!
this made me feel a little better though, especially since i do know an emma clark
last night i hung out with taylor (had a fabulous time as usual, thanks)
BUT THEN THIS MORNING HAPPENED.
i left my phone in her bed.
she left for NC and i'm without a phone until the 24th. i already tried to convince the school to break into her room (with the key of course), and they won't. typical.
so back to fb and middle school it is.
good luck knowing what i'm doing world!
this made me feel a little better though, especially since i do know an emma clark
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Things I'm Afraid to Tell You
I was recently inspired by Alli to do a post like this so here it goes:
1. I am terribly worrisome and indecisive. I will mull over decisions ALL DAY LONG, and continue to question it after i make a choice. Unless it's something to do, in which case I have to say "yes" right away or it will always be "no".
2. I have completely fallen off the running wagon. Thinking of running makes me cringe. So naturally, I feel sick every time I remember I'll be running 13.1 on May 20th. And extremely embarrassed. Embarrassed because I want a tight body again, but I really really don't want to do the work.
3. I usually have fabulous (seriously, annoyingly (to others of course) fabulous) self esteem and body image. But lately, only in private, I feel so ugly. It really bothers me because I know people with low self esteem and they really piss me off because I think everyone should love themselves regardless! and now I'm joining the ranks as someone who looks in the mirror and is disappointed and pinching imaginary fat and wishing my face was better and my lips and eyes looked like this or that.
4. Living in my apartment is making me an animal hater. The dog ate my laptop cord (well just chewed it; it still works), has dragged used tampons into the living room (sorry Ryan), chewed on clothing and craft supplies, and eaten 2 pieces of Tupperware. There is no stopping this dog! I feel so bad because she gets so sad when Ryan isn't home, but clearly she can't be trusted in my room when I'm sleeping or not paying full attention to her. So I didn't let her in last night, and my door is ALL SCRATCHED UP and there's paint chips everywhere and my door is ajar and doesn't lock well anyway so she comes in as she pleases unless the door decides to work. So I am fuming. Can't wait to leave. Mostly I'm mad at Ry. I mean, isn't it normal to teach your dog to not chew things, stay out of the trash, not jump on people, and listen to people other than you? No?
5. I am NO good at dating. Perhaps you've picked that up after hearing about my dating mishaps, but I figured I'd restate it. I'm a great (my opinion of course) girlfriend, but please please please don't date me. When I date, I worry that you are not my soul mate (i know), and I will date anyone who asks me on a date because what if I say no and he was it?! Then, even if the date sucks, I will not tell you and wait for it to be your idea to stop dating me, because hey, I like food and conversation. And you have to twist my arm to get me to commit. But once I do, I'm great ;) I swear!
6. I'm needy. I like to hear that I'm needed and be given attention, or give it, as long as I am acknowledged for it. Perhaps why I like babies so much, and date people that require me to support and "save" them if you will.
7. I'm very good at shutting myself away from everyone. When I'm angry or uncomfortable I seethe and get quiet. Scary, is what I'm told. I don't yell when I'm really mad (only fake mad); instead I get the scary low and threatening tone.
8. I plan like no other. Schedules keep me sane.
9. Sometimes when people tell me I'm going to be just like my mom it pleases me immensely, and then other times it fills me with dread.
10. When I was in 8th grade, I went through a dark moody stage and wanted attention. I started cutting, but was found out (after I had stopped on my own; go figure). I was grounded from everything and everyone, lectured about germs, and have never been so ashamed. Except for maybe that time I got caught looking at porn. HAHHAAA
:)
that's all for now!
heavy for a Thursday huh?
1. I am terribly worrisome and indecisive. I will mull over decisions ALL DAY LONG, and continue to question it after i make a choice. Unless it's something to do, in which case I have to say "yes" right away or it will always be "no".
2. I have completely fallen off the running wagon. Thinking of running makes me cringe. So naturally, I feel sick every time I remember I'll be running 13.1 on May 20th. And extremely embarrassed. Embarrassed because I want a tight body again, but I really really don't want to do the work.
3. I usually have fabulous (seriously, annoyingly (to others of course) fabulous) self esteem and body image. But lately, only in private, I feel so ugly. It really bothers me because I know people with low self esteem and they really piss me off because I think everyone should love themselves regardless! and now I'm joining the ranks as someone who looks in the mirror and is disappointed and pinching imaginary fat and wishing my face was better and my lips and eyes looked like this or that.
4. Living in my apartment is making me an animal hater. The dog ate my laptop cord (well just chewed it; it still works), has dragged used tampons into the living room (sorry Ryan), chewed on clothing and craft supplies, and eaten 2 pieces of Tupperware. There is no stopping this dog! I feel so bad because she gets so sad when Ryan isn't home, but clearly she can't be trusted in my room when I'm sleeping or not paying full attention to her. So I didn't let her in last night, and my door is ALL SCRATCHED UP and there's paint chips everywhere and my door is ajar and doesn't lock well anyway so she comes in as she pleases unless the door decides to work. So I am fuming. Can't wait to leave. Mostly I'm mad at Ry. I mean, isn't it normal to teach your dog to not chew things, stay out of the trash, not jump on people, and listen to people other than you? No?
5. I am NO good at dating. Perhaps you've picked that up after hearing about my dating mishaps, but I figured I'd restate it. I'm a great (my opinion of course) girlfriend, but please please please don't date me. When I date, I worry that you are not my soul mate (i know), and I will date anyone who asks me on a date because what if I say no and he was it?! Then, even if the date sucks, I will not tell you and wait for it to be your idea to stop dating me, because hey, I like food and conversation. And you have to twist my arm to get me to commit. But once I do, I'm great ;) I swear!
6. I'm needy. I like to hear that I'm needed and be given attention, or give it, as long as I am acknowledged for it. Perhaps why I like babies so much, and date people that require me to support and "save" them if you will.
7. I'm very good at shutting myself away from everyone. When I'm angry or uncomfortable I seethe and get quiet. Scary, is what I'm told. I don't yell when I'm really mad (only fake mad); instead I get the scary low and threatening tone.
8. I plan like no other. Schedules keep me sane.
9. Sometimes when people tell me I'm going to be just like my mom it pleases me immensely, and then other times it fills me with dread.
10. When I was in 8th grade, I went through a dark moody stage and wanted attention. I started cutting, but was found out (after I had stopped on my own; go figure). I was grounded from everything and everyone, lectured about germs, and have never been so ashamed. Except for maybe that time I got caught looking at porn. HAHHAAA
:)
that's all for now!
heavy for a Thursday huh?
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